My name is Crystal and I lost my son Nathan at 25 weeks due to preterm labor with no known cause. Nathan lived for 8 days and we took him off life support due to a severe brain bleed that was causing severe brain damage. My husband and I held him on portable life support for about 7 hours and then we took him off all the machines. Two hours later he fell asleep in my arms and went to Heaven. He was beautiful, loved, and he is missed terribly everyday.

I have a 5 yr old daughter who misses Nathan and talks about him all the time. I love that she does because she talks about him in such a loving way, she says he is with Jesus but we can still talk to him, and she is right. I went on to have another son, he is nine months old and is a joy to us all. His sister adores him most of the time, and thinks he is a pest once in a while. Of course she is right, but I love to watch her mother him.

My husband and I are so blessed. For a while of course we didn't think so after we lost Nathan but slowly through our grieving and living with the loss of our son, we have finally started to see how truly blessed we are. We have 3 beautiful children, even if one is not here anymore , his memory always is. We have a strong marriage , that got stronger through our grief, and we have wonderful friends and family who are always there for us. I don't think we ever have a right to ask for anything else than that.

I joined HA after I lost Nathan and found wonderful people, who helped me so much and some I very good friends with. I also found that through my volunteering , I started to give a purpose to the loss of my son. It makes me feel good to know that I can help others and even make them feel better through such tragedy that we all share.




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